Jealousy.

Its never been like this before. I'm on new territory, and I'm not sure i like it. Or maybe I do. Maybe I just don't know it yet. Maybe I love it. Wouldn't that be something? But if I love it, then I'll be devastated when I lose it. And then, I'll want to die all over again. I think this is the last chance. What do you think? You think I'll win?